Lauren

07:33 pm - my "r" rated life...

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

Current Mood: calm

06:38 pm - SALLY I UPDATED...

Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the hardest things in the world...
It has been four days since I broke up with David and I still feel so sad and alone, even though I have so many great friends counsling me through this. Before when I broke up with a guy it was easy - i just got bored and didnt have feelings for them anymore - I think the hardest part about this breakup is we still really like each other we were just fighting a lot, and I think we just knew it wasn't working out. But, I keep wondering if I made a mistake I just miss him SOOOOO much. God I sound SO pathetic and ridiculous.
On a happier note, I'm going to California in 22 days!! I'm going to stay with Ariel in San Diego for a week!! I can't wait, it will be so nice to get out of this place for a while! Well Sally I updated, now I must go do some Math.

Current Mood: depressed

08:04 pm - I'm going to miss Friends!!!!

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "...downtown Purvis."

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: the wall

3: What was the last thing you watched on TV: An old rerun of Friends, where Monica is fat and Pheobe has a heart attack.

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 8:12

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 8:08

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: "Friends" on the television.


7: When did you last step outside?: When I walked from my car to the house.


8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: www.comcast.net

9: What are you wearing?: hot pink capris, a black hollywood t-shirt, and black flip-flops.

11: When did you last laugh?: At my puppy, she tried to run after some food and crashed into a wall!

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: An Audrey Hepburn poster, a mirror, lots of fun pictures of my friends.

13: Seen anything weird lately?: hmmmmm..... I dont know every day is weird.

14: What do you think of this quiz?: It's a great way to cure the boredom.

15: What is the last film you saw?: "Win A Date With Tad Hamilton" quite a fun movie!

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: I would get my own place, buy a new car, lots of new clothes, invest some money.

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: I dont know I oont have many secrets.

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: I would make sure there are no more homeless, hungry, or abused childen.

19: Do you like to dance?: Sort-of, it would be better if I had more talent.

20: George Bush: Quite slow, but he could've done a lot of things worse.

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: Madeline

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: Kyle? Bradley?

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?: Definately!!! I would love to live in Italy or France!!!

Current Mood: lazy

08:07 pm - ummmmm....

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04:11 pm - boredom....

Okay I am really bored and I love these survey things!!!!!!!

Lauren...
FIRSTS
First job: Hands On Childrens Musuem (i know its pathetic i'll never leave)
First screen name: HllywdCal21
First self purchased CD: The Grease Soundtrack - dont make fun!
First funeral: My best friend when i was in kindergarten :(
First piercing/tattoo: My ears when i was 11
First credit card: Visa... its gone now!
First true love: still waiting...
First enemy: A scary, awful girl named Vanessa!

LASTS
Last big car ride: To the mountains in December
Last kiss: David
Last library book checked out: i have no idea, its been so long
Last movie seen: Starsky and Hutch (the downside of having a boyfriend)
Last beverage drank: ice tea
Last food consumed: crackers and cheese
Last phone call: Ashley
Last CD played: a mix cd
Last annoyance: my mom made me clean the house this morning!
Last soda drank: Diet Pepsi
Last ice cream eaten: Chocolate with strawberry and gummi bears thanks to Ashley at ColdStone
Last time scolded: THE MOTHER this morning for laughing at the choir in church
Last website visited: www.comcast.net

I am: tired
I want: to lay in the sun and be tan
I have: spend time with the family (it is easter after all)
I wish: that i didnt have to go to school
I hate: School

YES or NO:
YOU KEEP A DIARY: only this
YOU LIKE TO COOK: junk food!
YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: yes

DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: Just my boy!
WANT TO GET MARRIED: Yes
GET MOTION SICKNESS: Unfortunately
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: I wish
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: Yes, I love them
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: Brownish, blondish, red????
EYE COLOR: green
BIRTHPLACE: Olympia, WA

FAVORITES...
NUMBER: 21
COLOR: Pink and Green
DAY: Saturday
MONTH: December and July
SONG(S): hmmm... too many im not sure
SEASON: Summer
DRINK: Diet Coke

PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: Depends on how tired i am
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: chocolate milk
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: Dark Chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: STRAWBERRY!

IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? No
HELPED SOMEONE? Yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING? Starbucks!
GOTTEN SICK? No
GONE TO THE MOVIES? No
SAID 'i love you'?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: No
MISSED AN EX?: No
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: THIS
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes
MISSED SOMEONE? not really
HUGGED SOMEONE? Yes
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? No
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? No

Current Mood: cranky

10:28 pm - Pizza and Chocolate...

Oh boy!!! Ashley and I had a major pig out session tonight for woman night, basically woman night consists of eating way too much food and watching The OC (which im obsessed with!) The previews for the next episode said someone could die in a car accident, my bet is on Luke - it can't be Seth or Summer!!! Anyways, real life- I failed my Writing 102 class, I'm such an idiot!!!! It was a lot of work and the teacher was soooooooo fricken boring so I just stopped going. Now I am totally freaked out my parents will kill me if they find out! I'm hoping if they ask for the grades I can just copy and paste them into Word and then delete the F and make it something more acceptable. I seriously hope I can get my act together and notscrew up next quarter, I am taking abnormal psych, soc 101, and stupid math (math 94).
So, things with David are going pretty well- there is only one slight issue and I really want to be careful that I am not too sensitive about it. Everyone knows that I can be a bit of a ditz sometimes, but I really don't need my boyfriend to point it out to me. It used to be kind of cute when every once in a while he would make fun of me -but now it is getting ridiculous. I feel like I can't quite tell whether or not hes kidding, I know he just doesnt understand why i'm so sensitive about it, but I just feel like I should feel good about myself and comfortable when I'm around my boy. I LIKE HIM SOOOOOO MUCH - and hes sooo perfect to me in lotsof ways!!!
Ashley said something about Gavin today that just touched me, she said that one of the things she really likes about him is that: he knows she can be sensitve about things, and he sometimes thinks she is too sensitve, but he totally respects that part of her anyways and just knows when to let things go - i just thought that was sooo sweet and I would like that someday!
Anyways, that is a recap of my life of late - Ashley is yelling at me cause I'm trying to watch A League of Their Own. I think its a good movie!!!!!! Please, leave me a nice comment!!! THANKS!!!!!

Current Mood: content

11:13 pm - Late night thoughts!

Hey everyone!!! It has been ages since I updated, but I cant sleep so... David just left (for those of you who don't know, he is my boyfriend) he had dinner with my family tonight SCARY!!!!! I was soooo glad my dad wasn't home, when boys he doesnt know very well come over he just sort of glares evily. Normally we would go to his house, but my mom decided I never come home and spend time with the family anymore and I need to stay home this week - she wouldn't even let me go to Woman Night at Ashley's!!! I just really don't feel like fighting with her about this stuff lately. If I just follow the rules a couple of times she usually forgets about them.
I broke myself Ice Skating on Saturday, I realize this may not have been the best activity for someone like me who lacks any natural grace - but, for once the injury wasn't my fault!!!!!! This elderly man fell on the ice and broke his arm, so we we were all skating off the ice and I was holding David's hand - then he tripped and fell, knocking me over, I landed with all of our weight on my right knee cap!!!! It is a lot of different colors now. I also took my first trip to Krispy Kreme!! The donuts are SOOOOOOOOOO good I'm just very glad we don't have one in Olympia I would be 900 pounds!
It was sooo sunny and beautiful out today, it makes me long for California, I really need to get my act together so I can move there - soooooooooooo much money! I applied to Western for next fall, I'm not really sure what I will do with myself. I wish there were options for people who just really hate school! I'm plenty intelligent enough to pass my classes, I just have no desire to do any of the work or even be in college!!! Unfortunately I'm going to be working for 8 bucks an hour for the rest of my life if I can't get it together. Maybe I will just marry into money : )
Its getting late so I am going to try and sleep a little, I'm just very hyper!!!

07:51 pm - The Layers of Lauren

LAYER ONE
-- Name: Lauren Nicole Belmonte
-- Birthdate: 07/19/1985
-- Birthplace: Olympia, Washington
-- Current Location: My room
-- Eye Color: Green
-- Hair Color: Brown
-- Height: 5'4"
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Cancer

LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage: Italian!!!
-- The shoes you wore today: black doc martins
-- Your fears: dying and being alone
-- Pizza toppings: EXTRA CHEESE
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: become a good driver, get along with my family, spend less money, focus on school

LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: OH BOY! or LOL!
-- Your thoughts first waking up: something along the lines of being too tired to get up.
-- Your best physical feature: My eyes
-- Your bedtime: around midnight
-- Your most missed memory: ski trips every saturday

LAYER FOUR
-- Pepsi or Coke: Diet Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: Nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton Ice Tea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: STRAWBERRY! (vanilla if i have to pick)
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: No - disgusting!
-- Cuss: Not usually, except when I'm driving
-- Sing: unfortunately for those around me
-- Take a shower everyday: of course
-- Have a crush(es): DAVID!!
-- Do you think you've been in love: Probably not
-- Want to go to college: I am in college
-- Want to get married: definatley
-- Believe in yourself: for the most part yes
-- Get motion sickness: some of the time
-- Think you're attractive: average/decent looking
-- Think you're a health freak: LOL!!!!! yah right!
-- Get along with your parents: Now i do
-- Play an instrument: I lack musical talent

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: No
-- Smoked: No
-- Done a drug: no
-- Had Sex: no
-- Made out: Yes
-- Gone on a date: yes
-- Gone to the mall?: yes - too many times
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: ahhhh no
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: nope
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: yes!!!
-- Gone skinny dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: not in the last month
-- Stolen anything: no

LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
-- If so, was it mixed company: yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: yes
-- Been caught "doing something": no
-- Been called a tease: yes
-- Gotten beaten up: no
-- Shoplifted: no
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no

LAYER EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: 24 or 25
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 3 - 2 girls and a boy!!!
-- Describe your dream wedding: an outdoor wedding, maybe on the beach
-- How do you want to die: happy, with no regrets
-- Where you want to go to college: lkfj;safhjas;lefjea
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: a famous actress and sportscaster
-- What country would you most like to visit: France or Italy

LAYER NINE: In a guy...
-- Best eye color?: Blue
-- Best hair color?: not red
-- Short or long hair: short
-- Height: 5'8"-6'2"
-- Best weight: 150+
-- Best articles of clothing: anything that shoes off nice arms
-- Best first kiss location: anywhere as long as its a good kiss : )
--Body Part: Arms, abs, and eyes

LAYER TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 1
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
-- Number of CDs that I own: around 50ish?
-- Number of piercings: 2, one per ear
-- Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: i only know of twice??
-- Number of scars on my body: 3 noticeable ones

03:46 pm - Personality Test!!!!

10:37 pm - Cookies and Milk!!!

I don't know why but cookies and milk are right up there as the most comforting food ever!!!! I always feel so much better when I'm eating my cookies and drinking my milk. Just in case you couldn't tell, that is what I am doing right now. Ashley made me some wonderful chocolate chip cookies to cure my sadness!! Today has been a really rough day. I got in a huge fight with one of my best friends about something soooo incredibly stupid. She flipped out on me when I mentioned that I am considering moving to California. I realize that things like this can be difficult to understand, but life is about taking chances. I don't want to look back 50 years from now and wonder what life could have been like. I realize that she cares about me and doesn't want me to screw my life up. It is just so hard to know what you really want for yourself when you have so many people telling you what you should want! I am so incredibly grateful that I have friends and family that care so much about me, but at the same time they make me feel sooooo claustr0phobic, no room to think or breathe. The thing that really upsets me is fighting with friends - I HATE IT! It gives me such mixed emotions - guilt, anger, sadness - ugggghhhhhh!

While I'm having my "pity party" I would also like to mention that Valentine's Day can is an increadibly rude holiday! It makes you feel so awful if you don't have a boy!! Okay this is stupid, I really shouldn't feel bad about it!

Even when I'm having a really awful day, sometimes I just look around my room at all my things and pictures - and realize how lucky I am and how stupid all my rants can be. I think its just all the emotions going crazy!!!! Well now that I've ranted about all my issues, I'm going back to my chocolate chip cookies and milk!